I am a young woman living in central Pennsylvania. I go to classes, work my part-time job and can be regularly seen wearing a fabulous outfit on the sidewalks of campus. I know who I am. But every once in a while someone comes into your life who makes you question who you are and who you want to be.
From dressing differently to spending my days anxiously waiting for texts back, I was a goner. When the fog finally lifted I was shocked to see the person I had morphed into. I’ve learned that it’s easy to lose track of yourself and extraordinarily difficult to find your way back.
The fun part about realizing that you have morphed into an alien being if you get to reevaluate. Who am I? What am I looking for right now? Am I actually mature enough for any of this? Reflection is brutal but necessary. It’s the rebrand I was not prepared for, but definitely needed. After picking out my latest spring color palette, spending way too much money on a new wardrobe and updating my profile pictures across all platforms, I feel as good as new.
You see, I have come to the conclusion that I don’t want anyone who doesn’t want me. A simple thought (I know) but life as of late has made this simple request seem as far-fetched as a proposal. I have realized in my past week of reflection that no matter how much you like someone, no one is worth begging for. To counter this realization and to cure my jaded little heart, I will be returning to the ice-woman you all have come to know and love. Now that my Reputation Era has been unlocked, it’s time to get back in the game.
The solution to this was found in a dating app I recently stumbled across. The App is called DateNight and has been the most fun I have had in a while. The idea is simple, go on a date … with your friends. If you have been dating you know the rules are simple. You get dressed, go out and then go home and tell your friends every little detail. This app basically cuts out the middleman, because your friends get to watch on as you basically facetime your match and live react. It’s a fun way to screen potential love interests and it’s my new favorite pastime.
Now that I have a new dating app AND some new killer outfits I am all set to dive back in. The prospect of putting myself back out there is always humbling, but I’m excited for my cruel summer. Remembering who you are is difficult, but once your heart catches up to your head, it’s game-time bitches.
Until next time my loves! Message @Valleymag on Instagram and tell me about how you get back to feeling like yourself!